Pah – thetic
Pathetic. Pah-thetic. Pa-thet-ic. I am pathetic. I’ve been so pathetic lately I’m even starting to annoy myself. Hence this post. The realization of this hit me while I was shopping last night. There I was in Marshalls trying on sunglasses. I believe I spent a good 20 minutes trying to decide between two pairs. I kept putting one on, taking another off, putting it back on, taking it back off…forEVER. I kept thinking to myself, “Man, I wish Ben or Tricia or Candice were here to help me decide”. And than I thought, “Girl! You’ve got a brain! Decide for yourself!!! Pick your fav, buy’em, own’em, and strut’em with confidence!”. You would think after that little internal pep talk I would have immediately chosen a pair and be done with it right? Nope. I looked at the price tag and saw they were only about $9.00 each. My budget for sunglasses was no more than $20.00. So what did I do? Yep, you got it, I bought both.
Either way, the lesson was learned. Well, two lessons really. The first is the fact that if I would have looked at the price tags initially I would have saved myself 20 minutes of fretting. The second lesson, clearly, is that I’m pathetic.
And, if that story isn’t enough for you, just ask my husband. I do believe I’ve asked him every single day this week if he “likes my outfit” or “my hair” or “my makeup” or “my whatever have you I’m wearing please tell me I look good because I’m Pah-thetic ensemble”.
Like most, my insecurity is a roller coaster ride. High for awhile. Low for awhile. With the highs being short and thrilling and the lows being slow and, well, pathetic.
I’m a huge lover and believer of confidence. What you wear, the color of your hair and skin, the size and shape of your body…definitely are a factor but they aren’t deal breakers. Not like confidence anyway. How do you think some of those awful fashion trends…become trends? Some idiot has enough confidence to strut them. That energy is shooting out in the world in full force grabbing the attention of every single and insecure Being as far away as China. We girls see that energy.We feel that energy.We want that energy. So what do we do? We go out to buy what that chick is wearing (stupidly) thinking it will make us confident too. Hence a trend is born.
So. Today is a brand new day. Pathetic no more. Confident fo sho.
